its a house coat

I am not sure why i am blogging, i doubt anyone is out there listening, i think it is more about getting the thoughts out of my head so i don't drowned in them. my name is Steven, i am 33 i suffer from depression, i work in care, i am married (only just about) i have two step daughters and two biological daughters, i am not a bad person but i have done some very bad things. i love movies, films, philosophy and want to be a writer. i feel like an outsider to the world. is there anybody out there?